～基地外のワンダーランド～ Welcome to the grave of a rather cosmopolitan goth guy. Cat hugger, paralian, Aquarius, genderqueer.Tumblr (3.0; @azumaibara)http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/<p>Falling apart. Barely surviving the night.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49840065262http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49840065262Tue, 07 May 2013 15:24:16 +0900to make things worse had to ditch my therapistlossbpdi don't know anymore bye<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/f3c241a908d4acd22638978a9c58ac28/tumblr_mlvueaUoAy1qa9p8uo1_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/6317081b9b948eba1c71ddfe11dbbc36/tumblr_mlvueaUoAy1qa9p8uo2_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/5f8c3e63e3c13c1373c28800be33d103/tumblr_mlvueaUoAy1qa9p8uo3_r1_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/f2251b2427edeaf68b2e4acd6266328b/tumblr_mlvueaUoAy1qa9p8uo4_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49632802367http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49632802367Sun, 05 May 2013 08:30:25 +0900<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/7e496a503937bdc9100aa4c8ee092daa/tumblr_mfn1fnAxYJ1qzvuc9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://buubuu.tumblr.com/post/38862961031/on" class="tumblr_blog">buubuu</a>:</p> <blockquote><p><a href="http://twitpic.com/6b9o6x/full">最近、知り合いに教えられて埼玉県の怖さを知りました……。ちょっと行けそうにないです……。… on Twitpic</a></p></blockquote>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49632591347http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49632591347Sun, 05 May 2013 08:27:20 +0900<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/c5525685f80de5bf0a31ef1dffa7f330/tumblr_mlzklzJBG31qaknq0o1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://hautekitsch.tumblr.com/post/49128488265/i-picked-yukio-mishima-for-my-author-project-since" class="tumblr_blog">hautekitsch</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>I picked Yukio Mishima for my author project since I love his writing, but while researching I keep getting distracted by how handsome he is. </p></blockquote>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49245428697http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49245428697Tue, 30 Apr 2013 16:01:59 +0900<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bettyrizz.tumblr.com/post/37922644307/mental-illness-is-constantly-either-demonized-or">bettyrizz</a>:</p> <blockquote> <div> <p>mental illness is constantly either demonized or romanticized by society and there is no space in that dichotomy for real people with mental illness to exist without feeling shamed and invalidated and that isn’t fair</p> </div> </blockquote>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49244304779http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49244304779Tue, 30 Apr 2013 15:29:05 +0900<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/b02212fc6e7d354cc5b1edc18074c722/tumblr_mlmdzcv7pA1so4vyvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://1bohemian.tumblr.com/post/48939041658/the-tatenokai-or-shield-society-was-a" class="tumblr_blog">1bohemian</a>:</p> <blockquote><p><span>The <strong>Tatenokai</strong> (</span><span>楯の会</span><span>) or Shield Society was a private</span><span> </span><span><span>militia</span></span><span> in </span><span><span>Japan</span></span><span> dedicated to traditional Japanese values and veneration of the Emperor. It was founded and led by the author </span><span><span>Yukio Mishima</span></span><span>.</span></p></blockquote>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49053178930http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49053178930Sun, 28 Apr 2013 10:31:47 +0900<p>Lucifer give me strength.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49052943622http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/49052943622Sun, 28 Apr 2013 10:28:20 +0900<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/1f7d58aa84eb31c94b24cbec5f60470d/tumblr_mlfnr5avD11qziw74o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://hoaxtheory.tumblr.com/post/48256808017/flower-exposed-to-radiation-from-fukishima" class="tumblr_blog">hoaxtheory</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>flower exposed to radiation from #fukishima nuclear facility Japan</p></blockquote>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48843688042http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48843688042Thu, 25 Apr 2013 18:31:53 +0900<p>If someone comes crying to your house asking for forgiveness and saying that they really love you, then you would expect that that person will not repeat their past mistakes and be the friend they never were.<br/> But I’m here curled up in my bed, chewing pill after pill in the hope that this state of mourning will be muffled by the sedation that is slowly taking control of my body.</p> <p>Because crying for the dead is useless. My tears won’t purify their rotten corpses.</p> <p>But the living who are at a walking distance from me, are a wall of silence. And one would hope the tears could reach them.</p> <p>But what am I saying. I’m a grownup. I don’t want to sadden my partner anymore. I have to get through this even if the hands I wanted to reach aren’t by my side anymore.</p> <p>Alprazolam is kicking in. Life continues.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48729995145http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48729995145Wed, 24 Apr 2013 08:40:38 +0900lossdepressiondeathtwtrigger warning“How odd I can have all this inside me and to you it’s just words.”<br/><br/> - <em>David Foster Wallace’s <em>The Pale King</em> (via <a href="http://torturegardens.tumblr.com/" class="tumblr_blog">torturegardens</a>)</em>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48648510687http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48648510687Tue, 23 Apr 2013 08:32:03 +0900<p>The incident was in yesterday&#8217;s newspaper and all that. It is real even if my mind is refusing to believe it.<br/> I don&#8217;t like my emotions. I&#8217;m kind of scared.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48547783775http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48547783775Mon, 22 Apr 2013 04:32:41 +0900losstrigger warningazuma ibara<p>And I had heartbreaking news when I came home. A friend committed suicide.</p> <p>I&#8217;m so numb. And angry.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48423174973http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48423174973Sat, 20 Apr 2013 16:36:00 +0900RIP S.twtrigger warning<p>Had an extremely bizarre night.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48422183166http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48422183166Sat, 20 Apr 2013 16:07:41 +0900my boss filled me with Jack Daniel'sbut I technically can't drink since I'm so medicatedbut A JOB IS A JOBfml<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/0e5cd09d53fbc18875b0a8004ddfcf42/tumblr_mg18c6mkFP1qe9cd1o1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://asfornow.tumblr.com/post/39538035115/i-feel-ya-bro">asfornow</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>I feel ya bro</p> </blockquote>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48387234104http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48387234104Sat, 20 Apr 2013 07:30:32 +0900<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/4a5bb5af2e66e1f79a1b7906b90b37e3/tumblr_mlfd5dgKx51r9kx12o1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p>Oh well now I understand everything.</p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48386538917http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48386538917Sat, 20 Apr 2013 07:21:27 +0900<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/2a58e8923c60a52a9cb2bbcc60c2b1ed/tumblr_mlhanoCy2I1qc7iw3o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48342798065http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48342798065Fri, 19 Apr 2013 15:52:07 +0900<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/af743a59a726052cc723317ce77f31d8/tumblr_ml21kig6jN1rzthl7o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48339100414http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48339100414Fri, 19 Apr 2013 14:21:42 +0900<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/ddabd02080c1640e8bf0ad128e5f53a9/tumblr_mlc883TsdR1snl7h0o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48305713025http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48305713025Fri, 19 Apr 2013 06:55:42 +0900<p><span>大キライ　手を握られたりするのキライ　</span><br/><br/><span>放っておかれるのもキライ　</span><br/><br/><span>めんどくさいって　自分でも思う</span><br/><br/><span>狂うくらい　大人の臭いとかキライ</span><br/><br/><span>爪がのびてくのもキライ</span><br/><br/><span>こんなわたし　レンアイの資格もない</span><br/><br/><br/></p>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48266748939http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48266748939Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:21:22 +0900スガシカオcan't get enough of this song<iframe class="tumblr_audio_player tumblr_audio_player_48266592510" src="http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48266592510/audio_player_iframe/azumaibara/tumblr_ml5mfbcmf81rcj8ec?audio_file=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.tumblr.com%2Faudio_file%2Fazumaibara%2F48266592510%2Ftumblr_ml5mfbcmf81rcj8ec" frameborder="0" allowtransparency="true" scrolling="no" width="500" height="169"></iframe><br/><br/>http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48266592510http://azumaibara.tumblr.com/post/48266592510Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:14:47 +0900